a weak red rose

this not a gud day for make a new begin in my life, i feel it, as a young girl i can't understand any situation happen on my life, just damn it. i never thought that i'll stay at class room and hear my teacher give me a damn story of math, that so suck me. sometimes i ever think that maybe better i'll lost from them, just go far away and find my life. but impossible and i know it. can you feel it? i feel that the airs are not same again, to much pollution like my life, the dusts in the airs, just like any peoples on my life. i don't know what my teacher talking about cause i don't really care about him, i just enjoy wih my imagination on my head and just draw on my book. i just can hope that time can running fast and i'll get to home, but it's not simple like i think, no.

" can't i runaway? can i be something new? it's that a loser thing?"
i can be thinking everything in the math class, not about math but about my self, everybody think that their private test result is everything, but for me, there's nobody know anything real on my self and the person who know it, just me. i heard that the bell ringing so with fast i take all my book and go away from that class and let my imagination gone. now what? i don't know everyday just like gray on my eyes, there's nothing special like before, just like the past. but i love my past. i walk down and go out from the school, i'm not use bicycle or motorcycle's, so i used the public transportation or maybe walking to home. everybody think that used public transportation is suck and didn't have style, but for me, that used, just like American people. i can't stop to make imagination, about me, and my life, about how to runaway and about " can't i go fro it?" and i can imagination about it all time, say it crazy if you want.

i sat in the corner of the car, that my favorid place, cause i can see the way and yeah can look everything behind me. i turn on my mp 3 and and sometimes just make the car noise, heh, just like emo, but I'm not emo. I'm not on the plan to go home, but i want to refreshing my self, i chose fro go to around the city, just or a little time, i walked to book store and walk to see any books at there. my favored subject, vamps. i don't why but they really interesting for me like their story come on my blood and my soul, and just i'm is the one of them. but i don't know, i hope thats true. cause if thats true, yeah that's my way to runaway. i look all the book, vamps books and finally i found one book could make me falling love in the first time i see it. "a weak red rose" hemm, a book with red color cover and with vamp girl bring red roses picture, like blood. i phone suddenly ringing when i want to read the summary and thats from my mum. aiks i won't to answer it cause i know I'll hear her voice ask me to go home as fast as car and she will give me damn if she know that i buy a vamps book or novel again, so i hurry to go to cashier and pay it the go to home as fast as i can.

" mum i' home"
" jeressa, how many i told you that don't ever came late, i think that you understand it"
" ......." i don't give any answer i just walk up to my bedroom and lock the door and take my body to the bed.
wow, i oversleep, oh no, i out from my bed then go to my bath room, i take off all my clothes and take a shower with a shampoo and soap and some soft music like on the heaven, emm, i out with a towel on my body and wet hair on my head. i wear my pant and t-shirt and i remember about the book i bought in bookstore. i take it from my bag and i starting to open in the first page. and there's a word in there " you're so lucky to buy this book, this books it's only one in this world, and this book chose it's owner " , oh wow, it's that true?, i open again in the next page and then

" special for Michael, the king of all vamps, and special for nickholas my love ". i open again to the next page and read bab1.

" i know that i made a big mistake, i to far to take a step and now i can't go back, ... "

"jeressa, dinner time, come on don't make me wait and ask you again"

aiks, yeah i can't find any relaxing in here, suck.

...................

"give me a reason to cry? give me a reason to runaway, no i don't know what's the matter " thats the one word i read on that book,i stop to read for a while and try understand that word. why she said " give me a reason to cry, give me a reason to runaway" then in that book told that she is one from all perfect vamp. i continue to reading in my room and eat some snack, " i can't see it but i can felt it, i can feel that is not okay, there something happen on my head and i don't know". " i suck blood and i live in the night, just like normal vamps, but than it's getting bad, slowly get into darkness and will disappear ... i live like a butterfly night, but my soul like angel in heaven, my heart not to strong like my body... and i'll let it happen in the last"

8.00 am in the morning, ah well, i'm late, oh god i'm to serious with that book until i sleep to late night, aiks, but i don't feel any worried in my heart, yeah i know because my school the only suck place to make my life more fuck, yeah, there's so many kind of child in there, but i don't find any right child, i walked down to dinning room and didn't eat anything just drink my milk and go away without any word come from my mouth. i chose to used bus and like everyday, sat in the cornor and read my book again, now in bab 3, my big mistake " 3 december 1987, i know that samanta will marry him, and i know that he never love samanta, i try to told to her but she never listen me, she too love with him, yesterday i saw him make out with other vamp girl in the lake, but samanta won't to beliave it, i must make her cencel her wedding, you must believe me samanta, must..."

"ehen, excuse me the ticket please " the conductor on public transportation voice surprised me and made me close my book too fast but then i realize he just ask for ticket, " this is my ticket, thanks", finally i came back in here, damn place ever in my life, yaeh, i call it hell

......
i don't know could i keep this day? yeah i just keep on my mind and just stay on my imagination. i took my deary and i write something on my mind at there. " i meet a vamp today...(i don't really sure that i meet vamp today but yeah i meet it on my book), a weak vamp. she really have a beautiful heart not only like any vamp's heart in the world, she is a holy vamp i ever meet although only in my book". yeah, i though that she is the holy vamp i ever meet, i don't know why i say she is a holy vamp just like i can feel her heart, about anything she felt in her word, emm i don't know. i can see my math teacher entered my class and say good morning like holy people, ah suck, you're really not a holy, really not! i looked on his eyes, but he never know it, i saw like i'm a vamp and want to kill him right now and make the math over. he ask us to open our's books but me, i just opened other book, yeah read my novel behind my math book, and i don't really care about what my teacher said, just whatever!!

'open page 35 please, and we're will talk about logarithmic', hey hey i'm not in this page why you open it. i say it to my self when my novel open in that page in the time my teacher say page 35.
"there's something wrong miss. montez?"
"ah nothing, just nothing sir" i hide behind my nice smile and then back on my novel again. emm what it is? bab 4 "nice vamp, i don't think so".. emm i continue to reading it and let dreaming anything on my mind.

" yeah right maybe i'm like red rose, soft red rose and look so nice and holy vamp, and just did a mistake and proper to get "i forgive you" word" " but if you look me again, more look me in the inside, more and more, you'll find something that i'm not really nice, but i'm still weak" " i felt afraid, lonely and suck on my head, and in all my blood, i never can let it go and out from it, sometimes i can be a bad vamp if that blood come but behind that i'm still weak in the inside" "can you understand it?"

hah? bab 4 just like that? i can't see any word again just a empty page after that page and began a new word after 5 empty paper. " everybody can't know the real me" emm, what the kind vamp she is? just like me? i don't know i just know that now my math teacher take my book from me and put it on his table . " it's not a good time to read novel miss montez, i won't to see your novel again" said my teacher look so mad but i, i won't to lost my the only one novel in the world, so i stand up and open my mouth again just like other side on my self 'sorry mr. john but you'll not see it again because i and my novel will not join to your class again, see you next time mr. john, ah... if we're meet again" i take my bag and walked close to the table then took my book and go out and i didn't hear any mr. john voice again.

oh my god, what i'm doing? what i said 2 minutes ago? ahh stupid how can i do that? i sat on the park chair and thinking about my attitude some minutes ago. crazy yeah ugh... i look on my phone and i wrote something for my boy but then yeah i cancel it, i know that he'll not care with it when he in school, hufht. so what i must do now, i did something stupid in my life. i look my novel again, i know i can't go out from the school but it's not mean that i must to be like in prison ha? although maybe that's right but ah i'll read my novel again in bab.... ummm hey yeah bab 5 " sarah starting know who i am"

" maybe i did like that in everyday and there's nobody vamp know but now i meet with new vamp, i swear that she is new in vamp word she like white rose, more soft than me and i swear that she not have other side like me" " slowly she guess anything about me, and the suck fact are, she is know me, about my other side, ' you're maybe a weak, but you're have something scream on your heart i can felt it' said sarah. 'how can you know that? i never show it?'. ' no you never show it, but your eyes always show it, but the vamps can't feel or read it, they are blame of all the sweet things you know, I'm new in here' "
'sarah maybe can feel anything i feel, because she was like that but now, she is just like other vamps, full of lust and not a weak white rose, ' red not must to be weak, read must to be strong' said sarah and i just give my new smile to her, like vamp without sins"


i know, i can feel her heart now! she same like me, she weak but not really weak in the other side in her hear, she want to scream, there's something disturb her, but she can't thats why she said that she not really nice, yeah i know, and the person who can feel the same are just the person who are same like her! yeah now i know it! i'm the one who did like her, just like can't do anyting and weak but actually not really weak girl. we're need something to make it right, we're do anything just for make it better, until we're made a bad mistake but we're still have i forgive you word, oh my god how bad we're? how loser we're? or maybe how loser i'm did something more loser than her?! i did like this? i study in the school i never like, i just keep on silent on the time when i got bored, i never said ' i hate" when i got a things i hate, and i just keep on my imagination in the math class!!??? so yeah i'm not make mistake when i go out from class math, that's one good step for me, i think!

i heard the bell ringing so that's time for me to got to my English class,not bad, i like English, but i don't really sure that i like the teacher, ahh suck teacher. he ever made me cried in front of the class and ask me to telling something about my best friends, everybody know that i can't lost them. although now i lost them :(.i sat in the second chair from in front of the class and just l like before, i opened my novel beside my book. i heard he talking about roses at that time, and i just heard it but not understanding, i opened my novel, just check a look around the book, and every page at there until my teacher ask me to read the book, "you look so busy with your other book, i think that you'll so happy if you can telling us about your book". oh no, i can't say anything just stand up and say something i learn about that novel. " i can't sir, this book will chose their owner, so just the owner could understanding this book, i'm so sorry i can't". i back sat on my chair with bravely in my eyes and my teacher just smile and go speak again about the roses, aha? crazy teacher with bad voice disturb my life again today! nice, i want it over right now.

...........

just read it and try to understand it :)

there's nothing i can see at here
maybe when you get back you will understand,
i sleep like a butterfly and smile without any reason
just like you

everynody have their mistake, and just like. that always there on my head, like tattoo and can' to go away. what's wrong? i don't know, i can fell that sun come to my soul and catch me, i don't have any wings, for help me go out from there.... what i suppose to do? i can't look on back, or everything will despair just like disaster .....

my memories, that the best thing i ever have.. and i can't to forget it. never

life in the worl

bagi beberapa orang mungkin hidup ini telah sempurnah, uang, pekerjaan, kemakmuran, tidur nyenyak, cinta dan kasih sayang telah mereka dapat tampa susah payah. dimata mereka mungkin kehidupan di dunia ini telah tertata dengan baik, semua pada tempatnya. tapi apa benarkah semua itu? pernakah kita menengok beberapa sawdara kita yang lain di luar sana? apa mereka mendapat hal yang sama dengan kita? dan apakah kita peduli dengan apa yang mereka rasakan? kebanyakan manusia di bumi ini memiliki rasa egois yang inggi, mereka lebih mementingkan diri mereka ketimbang melihat orang lain bisa tersenyum bahagia dengan mereka.
pernahkah kita tau, berapa orang di sekitar kita yang tiap harinya merasakan kelaparan yang luar biasa? pernakah kita peduli pada mereka? kita hanya berani melihat mereka tanpa melakukan apapun untuk mereka. kita juga tak peduli apa yang mereka rasakan, kita menjauh saat mereka meminta bantuan menanggis pada kita.
pernakah kalian berfikir, dimana orang2 itu tinggal, apa mereka tidak kedinginan jika hujan turun? apa mereka merasakan hangatnya selimut yang kita rasakan saat malam?
orang-orang yang tak beruntung itu tak hanya ada di indonesia. banyak pada gelandangan atau orang kurang mampu dinegara negara lain. bahkan di amerikapun juga.
tidakkah kita berfikir untuk membantu mereka walau hanya sebuah bantuan kecil? tidakkah akan lebih baik jika tak hanya kita yang merasakan nikmatnya hidup? tiap orang berhak mendapatkan itu dan tak ada yang berhak untuk menghalangginya kecuali allah.

(buatlah hidup lebih baik dengan apa yang telah kalian lakukan, jagalah kehidupan dan bumi kita yang telah memberi kita oksigen untuk bernafas, kini saat.nya berbagi bukan tak peduli)

war and child

anak anak korban dari perang2 yang terjadi di timur


dengarkah kalian tangisan mereka yang merintih tiap harinya? tidakkah mereka seharusnya tersenyum?bermain?


apakah mereka hidup hanya untuk mendapat akhir seperti ini? tak pantaskah mereka mendapat kehidupan yang lebih baik?



tidakkah setiap manusia berhak mendapat kan sesuatu yang lebih baik? pedulikah mereka dengan apa yang anak2 rasakan? tidak kah hanya sekali sajah mereka mengalah demi keutuhan bumi dan generasi berikutnya?



bisakah kalian mersakan apa yang dia rasakan?

untuk apa perang terjadi? pentingkah perang itu dilakukan? apa hasil dari sebuah perang? kemenangan.pun seakan tak berharga jika kalian tau berapa ribuh orang yang harus hancur dengan adanya perang tersebut, berapa juta keluarga yang harus menderita? dan berapa anak kecil yang harus kehilangan masa kecil mereka yang harusnya indah dengan belajar dan bermain berubah dengan takut tanggis dan mental dan tekanan. jadi apa sebenarnya yang di inginkan dari sebuah peranng?!! apa negara tersebut ingin menunjukan betapa kuatnya mereka? jika mereka berperang untuk itu, mereka adalah negara yang benar2 bodoh. kenapa bodoh, karena mereka rela membuat rakyat negara mereka yang harusnya bisa menjadi makmur menjadi takut, kelaparan dan merasakan panas keras.nya dunia. apa perang untuk merebut kekuasaan atau wilayah yang harusnya bukan milik mereka?!! mereka malah lebih parah bodoh dan sangat berdosa. mereka telah mendapat wilayah mereka , mereka bisa memanfaatkan wilayah mereka dengan baik dan benar itu akan membuat rakyat mereka lebih bangga, bukan dengan perang. coba pikirkan lagi ap guna perang? untuk menang? kalah menang sama saja, malah mereka membuat bumi kita lebih hancur lagi dengan peralatan perang mereka, belum lagi jika mereka mengunakan bom atom atau sebagainya, apa kalian tau efek efek yang bisa di timbulkan?

beberapa orang mengatakan jika perang tak mungkin bisa di hentikan, karena setiap orang selalu mempunyai rasa ingin menguasai yang lain, dan kata damai yang terucap di bibir mereka, hanyalah topeng di dalam topeng belaka. jika kita lihat lagi lebih dalam? pentingkan untuk menguasai suatu negara, di takuti oleh orang orang? hi dup akan terasa lebih indah jika kita saling berkasih hati pada sesama demi kebahagianan bersama dan untuk generasi baru kita yang akan meneruskan cerita bumi kita? tidakkah mereka berharga? atau kekuasaan lebih berharga daripada senyum generasi baru kita?

Rose

bunga mawar umumnya digunakan orang untuk menyatakan cinta pada orang lain, tapi apa sih bunga mawar itu?

bunga mawar merupakan tanaman semak dari genus rosa. mawar liar umum.nya terdiri dari 100 spesies di dunia, umumnya spesies bunga mawar merupakan tanaman semak yang bisa tumbuh hingga 2 meter, namun kita jarang menemukan.nya. bunga mawar juga di anggap suci untuk beberapa dewa di yunani, bunga mawar juga menjadi bunga nasional inggris dan di kanada bunga mawar merupakan bunga provinsi alberta. bunga ini memiliki daun yg panjang.nya bisa mencapai 5-15 cm.

pada beberapa spesies bunga mawar seperti rosa canina dan rosa rugossa menghasilkan buah rose hips yang sangat kaya akan vitamin c. buah rose hips ini sangat disukai oleh burung pemakan buah. bunga mawar juga memiliki duri di tangkainya. beberapa mawar di daerah pantai seperti rosa rugosa berduri lurus seperti jarum yang mungkin saja digunakan untuk minghindari hewan perusak tumbuhan, melindungi dari pasir yang di terbangkan angin, atau juga melindungi akar dari erosi. mawar juga dapat di jangkit penyakit dan penyakit yang paling serius merupakan karat daun, penyebabnya merupakan cendawan. selain untuk hiasan rumah maar dapat di manfaatkan menjadi sirup, selai, jelyy, dll.

mawar taman secara umum di kelompokkan menjadi 3 kelompok

-wild roses

-old garden roses

-modern garden roses

Pentingnya Bumi Bagi kita !!!!

kalian tau nggak sih kalo bumi tu penting banget untuk kita, bumi itu nggak cuma bedan luar angkasa yang bulat dan besar saja. bumi itu memiliki oksigen untuk kita bernafas, bumi adalah tempat kita hidup dan tempat kita membuat cerita kehidupan kita. tanpa bumi, mau dimala lagi kita hidup???

tentunya kita tau jika sekarang bumi kata telah mengalami sebuah perubahan besar, kerusakan di mana- mana dan tentunya dengan manusia perusan di setiap tempat dibumi. tau kah kalian, jika di setiap unsur yang da di bumi ini selalu bisa dimanfaatkan manusia, entah dari laut, hutan, sawah, rawa, maupun yang lainnya. semua itu di ciptain tuhan untuk kita para manusia di dalam bumi. tapi... kalau bumi di ambilin isi.nya dengan terus menerus tanpa henti.
karena itu kita sekarang sedang banyak sekali yang namanya usaha menghijaukan bumi, dengan cara penghijauan atau lain2. penghijauan itu nggak hanya bermanfaat bagi kesehatan atau ke indahan saja, tapi juga bermanfaat untuk mengurangi kebakaran ada beberapa pristiwa yang membuktikan itu.

seperti kebakaran yang ada waktu di jogja, di gudang, api berasal dari tumpukan barang. tumpuka barang barang tersebut mengeluarkan panas dan karena tak ada yg menyerap hawa panas itu, apipun timbul.

nah jika banyak pepohonan, maka hawa panas tersebut akan diserap oleh pepohonan itu sehingga tidak akan menimbulkan api.

...... hijau.nya bumi kita sangat amatlah penting bagi masa depan bumi kita, demi generasi penerus kita yang akan menghuni bumi ini. bumi tak pernah menyakiti kita jika kita tak menyakiti.nya.... jadi janganlah kamu merusak bumi jika tak ingin bumi merusan keturunan.mu.