waiting

waiting

Rabu, 10 November 2010

continue of "A WEAK RED ROSE"

about 2pm, ok english class is over and time for me to back to my job. what my job? i didn't interesting with anything here? ummps,,, oh yeah my job just whire a story of something inmy imagination right!. i walked as fast as tiger to library and took some books and notebook from my bag. "so, miss montez, like everyday right?" i heard someone said something to ma and made me looked that person. ahh mrs. paula, the library teacher. "oh hey mrs. paula nice to sse you here" i said to her. she gave me a little smile and sat beside me, "your story?" she ask to me when she saw some word in my notebook. "umms, yup i made it by my self when i got a free time, emm ok maybe all time i have". "may i read it?" "oh mrs.paula but it not yet and just private, im so sorry for that". mrs. paula just gave me smile again and go from the chair.

ok i don't care with her, yeah i didn't care with all the teach he, they are just like dark angel in the hell or maybe more!!!! i wrote a words in my notebook, more and more until become a story, and i stop it when suddenly i heard my phone ringing "message from daniel". what!? there's a miracel??? dan will not call or sent any message to me when he in the school, haha god damn him. but i don't care with that i'm angry with him now so i didn't opened that message and just delete it from my phone "you broke my heart dan" i said it on my heart.

walked away from library to out from school, but my mind was so empty, it's not like everyday! how can i didn't think anything?! i felt the emptiness on my mind and my heart now, i stand up in the way and just keep on silent, my head like ask me to think about my life for now, there in the place you never want to be and feel alone cause your best friends like gone?!! god why i can let it happen, why i never scream on my real world, why i always scream on my dreaming world?!!!! i cry in the moment. but hurry i let it go likw dusts in the air.

...... at home ....

"jeressa!!! here i have a big news for you" said my mum when i enter in the home, i walked close to her and said "what its that? i though that i'll not hear any gud news after you put me in the hell place". she looked me with some sins in her eyes, well she is singel parent she was married with my daddy about 18 ago but my daddy died1 years ago, and now she did anything with her crazy mind i hate it so much! i hate the way she chose for all. "jere, i'm so sorry for..." "just tell me that news" i hurry made words and didn't let her finish her apologize, cause i know that never used for my heart, that will not change anything!!! she closed her mouth for a while then started to talk again. " one of magazine office ask me to join with them and i'll be the editor in there, and we'll live like before". i keept on my best thing, silent!!! there's no words come from my mouth then she speak again " you didn't like it jere?" ask her to me. " i'm bussy i need my bedroom" i walked away from her and go to the up stair to my bedroom and she just like .... i don't know im not in the mood for any suck things!! too many suck things for me.


i lock my door and open again my novel, okay where i start now? ah still in bab 5 where sarah know her other soul, who always scream in the inside of drean not in the real world.

" sarah always acommpany me everyday, i told everything to her, and i can said that she know who real me?"
" but too long ..... for sssarah to know me and yeah,,,, slowly she like the others vamp, and she didn't know me as well again, i back to my own world, where everything only there in my mind and just there a complicated things... i try to wake up this morning, the day when i'll she my best friend marry with the guy who never like her although just a little, i cleaned up my self and whore the dress from her , and yeah just like her want from me, i'll not dissapointed my best friend anyway"
i heard some one knocked my door adn well thats my mum, she ask me to do out with her for dinner with her office friends, godness how unlucky I am? actually i didn't like the even like this. sooo much
" jeressa? come on baby, i got a beautiful dress for you, red like you like" she show the dress to me and how yeah its look so gud and nice just like.. sarah dress? "come on i'll be waiting you, don't be long " she gave that dress for me and yeah i feel in love with that dress just like i ever whore it before.
i whore that dress and yeah look so beautiful in my body, look so sexy and wonderfull like vamp. i walk down and see my mum there, she whore white dress and like a simple dress " you look so beautiful jeressa". ' thanks mum, umm mum may i bring my books too, just if i feel so lonely i'll read it?" and she just smile on me.

i can saw rain it the outside of the restaurant, and i just stay on my mind just like before. i fly in the things about sarah, so what she felt when she know that everything will be trouble but she can't do anything? my mum just talked with her friends and its like damn for me, stay here and play my cake like child but with vamp style and looks so hot with a long heavy hair. i took off my book from my mums bag and slowly read the continue of it, but mum let took it from me and said that, "that's not a good act to see to my friends" hufh okay suck it, damn it, i say sorry and walked down to the outside and hear the fall of water rain in my ears, i felt something come to my soul, what it is? i sat in the corner of the simple way beside the restaurant and check out my phone. what the hell, there's no message. god really i wait for my prince message for now, need him for accompany me in the dark night right now. i wrote something and sent it to him, hope he will replay it and will not let me alone in the darkness but too late, he fall asleep now and i be alone here, with the rain voice of my head. and the voice of the rain, made me fall asleep at the moment made me fall away into my own dream.

" jeressa? wake up,,, you body wet, wake up jer"
i can't see who said to me but i know that voice, soft and old like my mum and yeah that her. i opened my eyes but really wake up, just like drunk and can't stand up and the rain voice still there. " mum, where i am?" i said and touch my head just like had headache. she smile on me and told me. " the outside of restaurant, you fall asleep jeressa, and you wet". i check around my body and gosh yeah all my red dress wet. i tired to stand up and walked to the car, ahd look so confused with my dress.

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